In the ebb and flow of life

20140410-152457.jpgAs I approach my 52nd birthday, I have been reflecting on the waves that have carried me thus far. There are aspects of my life that feel like they have been looping around in an unrelenting swirl: my desire for material comfort, the size of my jeans, and the balance in my checking account. There are other aspects that are relaxing happily on the shore: my marriage, family, and friends, acceptance of my limitations and strengths, and my love for the finer things of life – food, wine, Eileen Fisher, and spa treatments.

Although I still struggle with the pull the under currents of money, career, and school- I feel that with each passing year I become more and more comfortable voyage.

I aspire to be like the image of Yemaya with her head high above the waves, floating with ease on the currents.Stable and steady in my gaze, laid back and fluid in my actions.

Remnants of a Past Life

ImageIn 2007 I stepped away from a career that I had been building for nearly twenty-years. This career path had culminated in a six-figure position in the corporate offices of one of the largest financial institutions in the United States. In my personal life, I was responsible for mortgage payments on a half-a-million dollar loft, car payments, credit card payments, homeowner association dues, professional organization dues and more. My monthly expenses were averaging $6000. I also had panic attacks, migraines and nightmares.

But even after walking away from the bank, I continued to try to carry it all. For two more years, I did consulting work which paid the bills for a bit, but by the end of 2009 I was suffering from severe exhaustion, the bills had falling behind, and I had gained fifty-pounds. So, I called all the creditors; the mortgage company, the credit union, the credit card companies, and my bankruptcy attorney. Freedom was at hand.

Moving into a lovely one-bedroom apartment required a lot of downsizing. But instead of letting go of all that didn’t fit into this new reduced sized life – I got a storage unit. For five-years at an average cost of two-hundred and five dollars per month which comes to around $15,000 I have been holding on to the remnants of my past life. This weekend, I sorted through the dusty storage unit and faced the ghosts of my past.

I was able to fill three trash boxes with mounds of documents from my banking and non-profit management career, I released three boxes of design, management, and fiction books that will be sold or donated. I released six pairs of shoes, a trunk of office supplies, a huge box of party supplies (disposable forks, serving plates, cups, bowls). Over the next few days many of these items will find new homes.

I kept a few things, the certificates of appreciation and recognition, the family pictures from my old desk, a few African decor design books, a leather duffle bag that I used to move to Oakland in 1997.

With the emptying of the storage space, I am truly free of the burdens of the past. I am now able to fully live in the present. Unburden.

The Connection between Self-based African-Centered Spirituality and the Transpersonal Concept of the Self

…from the Yoruba people of West Africa there is a plethora of psycho-spiritual self-based concepts found within the traditional religion Ifá. The concept, aṣùwà – full actualization of one’s essence and orì ire, which address the state of one’s consciousness being properly aligned with one’s destiny are two examples that are focused on the actualization of the self through lived experience

This paper explores the African roots of transpersonal psychology and the importance of spirituality in the development of African-centered transpersonal self. It builds upon the work of Louchakova and Lucas (2007) that addresses the need for transpersonal psychology to develop a congruent clinical theory of the transpersonal self. They note that transpersonal theorists from Maslow to Ferrer have failed to agree on a conceptualization of the transpersonal self (p. 113). Therefore, this paper seeks to add to discussion by exploring the connection between self-based African-centered spirituality, its African-centered psychology counterpart the indexical self, and how these concepts can inform transpersonal psychology’s concept of the self. The long term goal of this initial research is to explore the notion of the transpersonal self and its practical application in the lives of African-American women to live a more fully actualized life through the development of an African-centered transpersonal self.

Louchakova and Lucas postulate that the absence of a transpersonal clinical category of the self is due to transpersonal psychology’s lack of examination of culture-related processes. Louchakova and Lucas note the need for transpersonal psychology to move beyond the bias of “western, male-centered versions of the world’s spirituality” (p. 118). Specifically, they call for transpersonal psychology to be more inclusive of representatives of indigenous spiritual systems, noting the African-American scholar Asante (1984) as a rare example of inclusion of an African ascendant voice in the transpersonal discourse.

Asante is a seminal figure in Afrocentricity (1984; 1990; 2003), which is a method of examining African phenomena. Afrocentricity and its contemporary expression Africalogy are central concepts that frame the theoretical notions underlining this paper. Asante (1990) defines Africalogy as “the Afrocentric study of phenomena, events, ideas, and personalities related to Africa.” (p. 14). The term Afrocentric is used primarily in the humanities and cultural studies fields. The social sciences tend to use the term African-centered. For this paper the terms African-centered and Africalogical will be used interchangeably. As noted by Louchakova and Lucas (2007) twenty-eight years ago, Asante (1984) detected the near absence of the African worldview in transpersonal psychology. A year later, when Myers (1985) conducted a survey of articles in the “Journal of Transpersonal Psychology” from approximately 1974 – 1984, she observed that an exploration of traditional African culture and worldview was noticeably missing. The review confirmed that the transpersonal paradigm mostly focused on “Oriental philosophy and modern physics” (Myers, 1985, p. 32).

To contextualize transpersonal concepts from an African-centered perspective, this paper explores the African roots of transpersonal psychology’s ancient psychospiritual lineage. Bynum (1992) states that awareness of transpersonal concepts such as transcendence, mysticism, and cosmic oneness were explored in Africa in the ancient land of the blacks – Kemet, which is now known as Egypt. The ancient Kemetic Egyptians wrote about “seminal ideas on the dynamics of death and resurrection, divine judgement [sic] and retribution, encountering the luminous spirit, the dynamic transformations of personal consciousness into the divine consciousness, the holy trinity and even the story of the Kristos” (p. 302). Bynum notes, “The psychological knowledge of these peoples included the awareness of the dynamic unconscious”, thereby developing a “transpersonal perspective on the unconscious” (p. 303).

Bynum (1992) reminds us of the cross-fertilization between the ancient Egypt, Ethiopia and Kundalini Yoga-rich Dravidian India via the trade routes; exchanging religious ideas and psychospiritual disciplines (p. 302). Bynum’s overview of transpersonal psychological concepts encompass not only the past, but the future by advocating for the field of study to move beyond its preoccupation with Eastern and Western methods. Bynum advises, by looking back to African mysticism and African notions of the unconscious transpersonal psychology “will open to the Personalism dimension inherent in many forms of ancient African mysticism and the African unconscious” (p. 305).

Transpersonal psychology’s narrow focus on the East constitutes a missed opportunity to learn from African concepts of wholism and consciousness like the Sudic Ideal – ideological harmony (Asante, 1984, p. 168). The ultimate task of ideological harmony (Sudic Ideal) is “to realize the promise of becoming human” (Asante, 1984, p. 168), which is the essential task of the person; for this to happen individual and collective harmony is primary (Asante, 1984, p. 170). Myers (1985) points out that the transpersonal paradigm goal of unity and integration of knowledge or a “system of interconnection” (p. 33) is already extant in the African worldview. Myers (1985), like Bynum (1992), and Asante (1984) call for future researchers to use an African-centered paradigm as a method to structure concepts of consciousness. Consciousness being the first of the four aspects of the transpersonal model of a person (Walsh & Vaughan, 1980, p. 12). For one to begin to understand consciousness from an African-centered perspective, one must understand the role of spirituality.

Spirituality, as opposed to religiosity is central to African-centered perspective therefore, it is important to define the term spirituality and its distinction from religiosity. Mattis (2000) endeavors to identify the definitions of spirituality by African American laywomen and to differentiate spirituality from religiosity. Mattis’ study takes an ethnographic approach in order to root the study in the subjective experience and perspectives of African American women. Mattis (2000) states, “African American people make complex distinctions between spirits that exist as a part of the religious realm (e.g., God) and those that exist within the secular realm of life (e.g., ancestors)” (p. 101). This is a particularly important distinction because from an Africalogical worldview, African people “do not conceive of themselves as separated from the cosmos but as being completely integrated into a universe [which includes both secular and non-secular realms] that is much larger than any of them and yet is centered around them” (Mazama, 2002, p. 220).

Mattis (2000) provides a variety of meanings of spirituality, including the biblical reference; breathe of God as well as interpretations from contemporary psychology, metaphysics, and sociology. She states that spirituality influences the way “individuals perceive interpret, and respond to their world(s) as well as significant social others” (p. 104). According to Potts (as cited in Mattis, 2000) “spirituality is a ‘belief that there is a sacred force that exists in all things’” (p. 104). Mattis notes that this definition argues for the “transcendent nature of spiritual existence” (p. 104); declaring Potts’ observation is important because it brings about a link between spirituality and sanctity.

African-centered scholar, Thomas (2001) defines spirituality as a distinct personal concept whereas religion is a shared experience with a group of people. Spirituality often corresponds to a universal concept, while religion tends to be about concrete expressions. Thomas declares, “There seems to be a connection between spirituality and mental health, psychological functioning, and wellness” (p. 2). Thomas notes that an African-centered spiritual worldview emphasizes the importance of a life force, accentuates unity, and connectedness of humanity to a Higher Power, to each other, and to nature.

From a transpersonal perspective, Grof (2008) points out the critical need to make the distinction between spirituality and religion. Grof defines spirituality as “direct experience of non-ordinary aspects and dimensions of reality” (p. 50) that are not in need of mediated contact, or an officially appointed person or special place. As an example, Grof notes that indigenous mystics experience their own divinity in their bodies and through nature (p. 50). However he fails to mention that their embodied divine experience occurs within a cultural phenomenon. This is an important oversight because transpersonal psychology tends to disembody indigenous psycho-spiritual practices and, as Louchakova and Lucas (2007) point out, spiritual experiences and ontological assumptions are not disconnected from the self – culture, spirituality and the self are linked.

Louchakova and Lucas (2007) argue that it is time for transpersonal psychology to explore gender, ethnicity, and culture, but to do so would require transpersonal psychology to develop a concept of the transpersonal self – which as previously noted, the field has yet to do. Louchakova and Lucas boldly ask if transpersonal psychologists are afraid to “examine the self, because being too person-centered will damage our work?” (p. 111). Asserting that for the field to develop a concept of the transpersonal self would require transpersonal psychology to move away from universalism and toward relativism and cultural construction. The discipline of transpersonal psychology would need to acknowledge that spiritual universalism is not invincible; as such, universalism would be significantly eroded by the cultural construction argument.

Washington (2010) states, “The assertion has been, within the European context, that what Europeans do is the norm for all people. They are universal and thus the prototype of all people” (p. 30).
Acknowledging that the Eurocentric convention of seeing itself as the universal standard is flawed, Louchakova and Lucas (2007) state, “What it means to be a human being is not the same ‘wherever we go’” (p. 116). They ask an important question regarding culture, the mind, and spirituality. Positing that if culture and mind constitute one another; thereby informing cross-culturally diverse patterns in higher-level mental processes, and if human development at large is the function of these influences, why then should spiritual development be exempt from the construct of transpersonal self? They point out that because transpersonal psychology studies the mind beyond the ego, consequently the sense of the individual “I” is poorly defined, and therefore the field lacks a clinical category of the self. Stating, that the “non-duality-oriented transpersonal rationalist” (p. 123) have a difficult time with the spiritual connotations and devotional attitude of self-based traditions.

Louchakova and Lucas (2007) consider the impact of self-based and no-self-based spiritual traditions on the development of the transpersonal self. To help understand the underpinnings of the self, Louchakova and Lucas look at how self-based and no-self-based spiritual systems differ in the experience of ultimate reality. Asserting that the lived experience of ontological indivisibility and non-duality of the ultimate reality differs greatly in self-based and no-self-based traditions (p. 123). Specifically, no-self traditions see internal reality as egalitarian and homogenous, while self-based traditions emphasize the “organization of the living self including its internal hierarchical ordering (Louchakova, 2005a) and the inner interrelatedness of its constituents…” (p. 124). Thereby, self-based traditions emphasize a decrease of ego and an increase of self so that the “living self is transformed rather than increased” (p. 126).

Transpersonal psychology’s theoretical emphasis on no-self-based Eastern traditions limits the inclusion of self-based African-centered spiritual traditions. This emphasis may be why the African voice has been neglected in the discourse on the development of the transpersonal self. Louchakova and Lucas (2007) offer an overview of self-based and no-self-based traditions, noting that Buddhism is an example of a no-self tradition, where as spiritual customs such as Tantra, Vedanta, Sufism, and Christian mysticism posit the ontological value of selfhood. “Self-based traditions imply that the attainment of the ultimate reality during one’s embodied existence requires a transformation of the understanding of the self, leading to non-dual perception” (Louchakova & Lucas, 2007, p. 123). African-centered traditions such as the Yoruba-rooted traditions Ifá and its Diasporic variations Lucumi (Afro-Cuban), Santeria (Cuban/Puerto Rican), Candomblé (Brazilian), and Vodun (Haitian), as well as the Akan theory of the person as described by Grills and Ajei (2002) – are examples of self-based African-rooted spiritual traditions. It is worth noting, that all of these traditions are currently practiced in the United States.

As a way for transpersonal psychology to more comfortably consider self-based traditions, Louchakova and Lucas (2007) suggest associating the “understanding of egological and non-egological forms of self in spiritual traditions” (p. 125), thus allowing the traditional transpersonal theorist “to proceed with more discretion in transpersonal theory building” (p. 125). By extension, the African-centered concept of indexical- and referential self could also be a pathway to unfolding the transpersonal self. Landrine (1992) provides an in-depth description of the indexical self and referential self concepts and their application in a clinical setting. Landrine states that “The ‘referential self of Western culture is construed as an autonomous entity defined by its distinctiveness and separateness from the natural and social world” (p. 403).

Landrine (1992) identify two types of indexical self concepts: the indexical self as social role – which is found in sociocentric cultures, and the indexical self as illusion or receptacle, where self is understood as a vessel for immaterial forces and entities; both of which are found within many African-rooted self-based psycho-spiritual traditions. A good example of indexical self as receptacle is found in the practice of spirit possession – which is central feature in all of the Yoruba-rooted traditions referenced above. In Candomblé, an Afro-Brazilian religion developed primarily by enslaved Yoruba, Aja-Fon, and Bautu peoples from West and Central Africa – incorporates veneration of ancestors, spirit possession of deities known as Orixas, and initiation ceremonies. Candomblé continues to be employed as an African psycho-spiritual method for healing. DeLoach and Petersen (2010) state that Candomblé provides “a model and means for understanding and treating the physical, psychological, and spiritual health of its devotees …” (p. 44). DeLoach and Petersen continue, “The process of initiation, for example is the process of joining with the cosmic energy of one’s Orixa; a process of mutual acceptance” (p. 44). It is a lived experience of cosmic unity. For the initiate and broader Candomblé community, individuals engage in spiritual intervention and restoration.

Another example of a self-based psycho-spiritual tradition is that of Ubuntu from the Zulu people of South Africa. It is an African construct that defines what it is to be a person, where being a person is both particular, and a task of self-realization (Brooke, 2008, p. 49). Ubuntu is a person’s internalized sense of community, their sense of responsibility toward others, both living and dead, and toward the wider world at large (Brooke, 2008). Ubuntu is also an example of a social role and receptacle indexical self. Two central scholars in application of Ubuntu are Washington (2010) and Brooke (2008). Washington (an African-American scholar) takes a distinctly African-centered approach by framing Ubuntu as an African system of healing that is part of African/Black Psychology. Brooke, a white South African scholar views Ubuntu through a Jungian lens of individuation, and sees it as part of a multicultural analytical psychology.

Washington (2010) describes the self from Ubuntu Psychology perspective “as being an expression of the Divine and is thus divine. All humans come from one divine Source and are at the same time an expression of that divine Source” (p. 35). He continues, “Relative to this notion that self is divine is the idea that Ubuntu Psychology adheres to the notion of universal consciousness or Soul” (p. 35). This universal consciousness of the divine human spirit “is always in connection with a Divine source within the universe. One then is able to connect with multiple dimensions of the universe because the universe is all and is multi-dimensional” (p. 35).

Brooke (2008) offers a nuanced view of Ubuntu via a Jungian lens and his concept of individuation – “with its emphasis on separateness and the withdrawal of projections, is essentially modern and Western” (p. 36). Jung’s psychoanalytic model being the first transpersonal psychology (Cortright, 1997) is important especially in light of Jung’s travels and studies in Africa. By way a of critique of Jung’s colonialized perspective of the African psyche, Brookes notes “With regard to individuation, for instance, Jung’s concept is so thoroughly [Western] cultural that it all but forecloses the possibility of individuation for people of color, especially in Africa” (p. 39). Brooke bridges Jung and Ubuntu by exploring the concept of African consciousness called negritude from the philosopher, poet, writer Leopold Senghor, the former President of Senegal. Paraphrasing Senghor, Brookes writes, “[Negritude consciousness] is the whole network of civilized values…which characterize the Black peoples, or, more precisely, the Black African world. All these values are informed by an intuitive reason – consciousness – that involves the whole person” (p. 48). Brooke notes the Jungian undertones in Senghor’s work. Brooke sees the concept of Ubuntu as an “important counterpoint to Jung’s view of the social world” (p. 48). Brooke’s defines Ubuntu as something that was given to all “because we are human, but its realization is a spiritual task that requires personal resoluteness, moral courage, and the support of others who treat us as persons”(p. 49), thus reemphasizing the connection between self, spirituality and community – the indexical self. Regardless of which lens Ubuntu is viewed through – be it African-centered or Individuation, it could serve as a valuable transpersonal model of the self.

Lastly, as mentioned, from the Yoruba people of West Africa there is a plethora of psycho-spiritual self-based concepts found within the traditional religion Ifá. The concept, aṣùwà – full actualization of one’s essence and orì ire, which address the state of one’s consciousness being properly aligned with one’s destiny are two examples that are focused on the actualization of the self through lived experience. Although there are numerous books and traditional knowledge on orì ire and aṣùwà, a cursory review of various databases, has not yet revealed any peer-reviewed articles that focus specifically on these topics. These two concepts are primary topics in the research interests of this author. As a practitioner of Ifá/Lucumi and budding transpersonal researcher, she is keenly interested in exploring these psychospiritual concepts of the self in depth. It is the intention of this author to conduct a preliminary phenomenological study on the transpersonal aspects of African-centered Black women healers. The study will examine the role of African-centered spirituality as it relates to the development of their transpersonal self and their psycho-spiritual well-being – to discern if and how these factors inform their healing practices. Additional research will also look at cultural constructionism and feminist theory as suggested by Louchakova and Lucas (2007) to explore their application to African-centered spiritual traditions.

In summary, Africalogical concepts are important to transpersonal psychology because they offer the field an opportunity to expand beyond its East/West paradigms, thereby allowing transpersonal psychology to embrace a neglected, but no less imperative cultural view in the fields’ ongoing quest to develop the notion of the transpersonal self. This paper endeavored to reflect upon the African roots of transpersonal psychology to show the need for their contemporary inclusion. It examined the importance of spirituality in the development of African-centered transpersonal self by exploring the role of spirituality in the African-centered concept of the self/personhood. Encouraging the field to move beyond spiritual universalism.

Building upon the work of Louchakova and Lucas (2007) and Landrine (1992) this paper explored the connection between self-based African-centered traditions, its African-centered psychology counterpart the indexical self, and how these concepts can inform transpersonal psychology’s concept of the self. To see how these concepts can be useful in understanding African-centered notion of self, the paper explored the African-rooted concepts of indexical-self in Candomblé and Ubuntu. This paper observes that there remains a dearth of research on African-centered psycho-spiritual traditions within transpersonal psychology literature in general and specifically regarding self concepts found in Yoruba-rooted traditions. There appears to be a critical gap in the field – the African voice. There is much that the transpersonal field can learn from African ontology, beliefs, ethos, and traditions (cosmology), and value (axiology). This paper affirms that the lack of attention given to African-centered self-based traditions has contributed to transpersonal psychology’s ongoing challenge with developing a definition of the transpersonal self.

References

Asante, M. (1984). The African American mode of transcendence. Journal of Transpersonal Psychology, Vol 16(2), 167-177.
Asante, M. K. (1990). Kemet, Afrocentricity, and knowledge: Africa World Press.
Asante, M. K. (2003). Afrocentricity: The theory of social change: African American Images.
Brooke, R. (2008). Ubuntu and the individuation process: Toward a multicultural analytical psychology. Psychological Perspectives, 51(1), 36-53. doi: 10.1080/00332920802031870
Bynum, E. B. (1992). A brief overview of transpersonal psychology. The Humanistic Psychologist, 20(2-3), 301-306.
Cortright, B. (1997). Psychotherapy and spirit: Theory and practice in transpersonal psychotherapy: State University of New York Press.
Grof, S. (2008). Brief history of transpersonal psychology. International Journal of Transpersonal Studies, 27, 46-54.
Landrine, H. (1992). Clinical implications of cultural differences: The referential versus the indexical self. Clinical Psychology Review, 12(4), 401-415. doi: 10.1016/0272-7358(92)90124-q
Louchakova, O., & Lucas, M. (2007). Transpersonal self as a clinical category: Reflections on culture, gender, and phenomenology. The Journal of Transpersonal Psychology, 39(2), 111-136.
Mattis, J. S. (2000). African American women’s definitions of spirituality and religiosity. Journal of Black Psychology, 26(1), 101-122. doi: 10.1177/0095798400026001006
Myers, L. J. (1985). Transpersonal psychology: The role of the afrocentric paradigm. Journal of Black Psychology, 12(1), 31-42. doi: 10.1177/009579848501200103
Walsh, R. N., & Vaughan, F. (1980). Comparative models of the persons and psycholotheraphy. In S. Boorstein (Ed.), Transpersonal psychotherapy (pp. 12-27). Palo Alto, CA: Science and Behavior Books, Inc.
Washington, K. (2010). Zulu traditional healing, Afrikan worldview and the practice of Ubuntu: Deep thought for Afrikan/Black psychology. The Journal of Pan African Studies, 3(8), 24-39.

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PhD Journey: Sankofa – My Work in the World

To do that which is of value is eternity. And (a person) called forth by his (or her) works does not die –Seti I” (Karenga, 1984)

Many years ago, I began searching to understand who I am and what I am to contribute to the world, known as the “fundamental Fanonian [Franz Fanon] questions…’who am I; am I really who I am and am I all I ought to be’”(Karenga, 2004, pp. 268 – 269) My search began as a result of emotional and physical abuse in my first marriage and postpartum depression. After we separated, I was set adrift in the world unsure of my identity and without the skills to financial take care of myself. It was the lost of self that prompted me to begin studying psychology. My study of psychology was unique in that during that 80s and early 90s it was quite easy to take courses in a variety of subjects from a “black perspective” – including sociology, psychology, economics and literature. I also studied every self-help book I could get my hands on; I made affirmation tapes, and wrote volumes of journals.

The struggle to stabilize my financial life is what led to me to develop a tool that would reconnect me with my emotional-self and its relationship to how I express in the world in my personal relationships and my professional identity. Over time, I created a workshop initially called the ‘VisionBook” workshop, which is now known as the Asuwa[1] workshop.

My journey reflects of the concept “Sankofa” from the Akan people of Ghana, “there is no shame in going back to fetch that which has been forgotten”. It is literally through Sankofa that I do my work, as I am the co-founder and Executive Director of Sankofa Cultural Institute (SCI). Through our organization (which my second husband I started in 1997) I am able to offer wellness programs to the black community in Oakland. The main objective in doing my doctorate in transpersonal psychology is to develop my theory healing that will serve as the guiding principles of the Sankofa Wellness Programs. I am particularly interested in the intersection of cultural identity and the self-actualization.To find my way as an Ubuntu[2] psychologist, that in both my life and my work I: (1) recognize Spirit in all aspects of life, (2) appreciate people’s spiritual journey, (3) facilitate movement towards becoming one with the Creator, (4) help increase people’s strength from their experiences, (5) keep people aligned with their purpose and (6) acknowledge that people have purpose. (Washington, p. 37)

References

Karenga, M. (1984). Selections from the Husia: Sacred Wisdom of Ancient Egypt. Los Angeles: The Univerity of Sankore Press.

Karenga, M. (2004). Maat: The Moral Ideal in Ancient Egypt: A Study in Classical African Ethics: Routledge New York & London.

Washington, K. Zulu traditional healing, Afrikan worldview and the practice of Ubuntu: Deep thought for Afrikan/Black psychology.


[1] Asuwa is a Yoruba terms which means to fully actualize your essence in contribution to helping others realize their destiny

[2] Ubuntu concept is expressed in the African proverb ‘I am because we are”

My PhD Journey

Greetings all,
Today completed
the first week of my doctoral program at the Institute of Transpersonal Psychology. Because I’m doing my degree online, all of our assignments are posted via the school ‘virtual campus’ program Angel Learning System.

So, I thought I could begin sharing some of my ‘posts’ with my community through this blog. I will start with my response to one of the reading assignments from my Spiritual Perspective class; an article by Angeles Arrien entitled: Discovering the Universal Journey.
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When Arrien asks if the Ten Commandments are universal, my first thoughts return to the ancient teachings from Kemet (Egypt). Which is where you find what many scholars believe are the original inspiration for the Ten Commandments.

“The Netcher* Maat was associated with the seven cardinal virtues, the keys to human perfectibility: truth, justice, propriety, harmony, balance, reciprocity and order. The seven virtues and the 42 Admonitions of Maat were the guidelines for correct moral behavior. They were written approximately 1,500 years before the Ten Commandments” (Browder, 2000, p. 22) A detailed comparison can be found in the book Nile Valley Contributions to Civilization. (Browder, 2000) *a Netcher is a deity. The cardinal virtues of Maat played an important role in my own spiritual development. Especially during my twenties when I was trying to figure out how to live my life in a more self-actualized manner (more on this in future posts).

I greatly enjoyed reading the Ten Oxherding Pictures with Commentary and Verses. I particularly liked how it showed the journey of coming into what is sometimes called Christ Consciousness or living Buddha. It reminded me of another ancient text, this one from the Yoruba people in Nigeria called the Odù Ifá which dates back thousands of year. There is one story in particularly of three friends that journey to earth; I’d like to share it, but unfortunately I don’t have the reference. So, instead I thought it would be fitting to mention one of our great scholars Dr. Maulana Karenga who published a book entitled: Odù Ifá: The Ethical Teachings. (Karenga, 1999) In it he’s selected Odù (divine stories) that have an ethical message.

I won’t go into detail here (as I’m already way past my 200 words), but each Odù has a number and name. In the case of the one I want to share, it would be 78:1 Ìrosù Wòrì. I’ve attached it as a PDF. Basically, it tells of what is needed to bring good into the world. Perhaps it speaks to what Arrien says are “themes or issues that concern us as a species and …begin to uncover what has ‘meaning’ for us in our species-hood” (p. 3)

References
Browder, A. (2000). Nile Valley Contributions to Civilization: Exploring The Myths – Volume 1 Study Guide. Washington, DC: The Institute of Karmic Guidance.
Karenga, M. (1999). Odù Ifá: The Ethical Teachings Translation and Commentary, A Kawaida Interpretation. Los Angeles: University of Sankore Press.

Attunement for 2010

Here are my Sacred Six priorities for 2010:

  1. School
  2. Spirit
  3. Self Care
  4. Sankofa Cultural Institute
  5. Coaching and Consulting practices
  6. Duane’s Business Manager

Specifically I will:

  • complete my BA degree at California Institute of Integral Studies (begin Jan/ graduate Dec)
  • complete two semesters of French at Laney College
  • complete two semesters of Yoga at Laney College
  • continue providing Coaching & Business Support Services – this includes Moon Circles and VisionBook Workshops.
  • get my “Warriors”
  • begin offering programing for Sankofa Cultural Institute (Portuguese language clubs, Jazz symposiums)
  • support Duane as his business manager
  • eat mainly “live food”
  • release 50 pounds
  • grow out my ‘fro
  • go to bed by 11PM and rise at 6AM
  • take sacred baths at least once a week
  • wheat, gluten & caffeine free

I am now creating success in an easy and relaxed manner, in a healthy and positive way. I am now living the life of my dreams in a easy and relaxed manner, in a healthy and positive way. I am now doing what I love to do in an easy and relaxed manner and in a healthy and positive way. I am sensible and in control of my finances. I am creating total financial success in a easy and relaxed manner and in a healthy and positive way. I am now living the my dreams in any easy and relaxed manner and in a healthy and positive way. (quoted from Marc Allen)

Releasing my inner Catwoman

Catwoman. I love this movie. I know, I’m the only one, but so what. I love it so much, that I’ve watched more times than I can count. I also plan to write an essay about it. But in brief, one of the things I love about it is the relationship between the women. I particularly enjoy the wise women role of Ophelia. It is she that Patience Phillips (Catwoman) turns to for guidance in her journey. Patience is concerned that she has lost herself in the transformation. But, Ophelia tells her not to fear, because she is a part of long line of “Catwomen.” By accepting who you are, all of who you are, you can be free and freedom is power –
I often feel this duality. I struggle between what I think I should be and my true nature. I long to release my inner Catwoman and liberate myself.

Our Deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God (a catwoman) Your playing small does not serve the World. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel unsure around you. (So crack your whip..) We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us: it is in everyone. As we (wear our catsuit) and let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others (meow) -Marianne Williams, with a little help from Catwoman

Who is Dwanimen?

I have a had a different name for each phase of my life. When I was born, the name at the top of my adoption papers read Baby Girl Walker; by the bottom it was Aretha Mae Brown. Aretha Brown was a happy care-free girl. When I got married at 18 yrs old, my name changed to Aretha Mae Nelson. After a couple years of marriage, Aretha Nelson was a overwhelmed wife and mother. When I divorced, it returned to Aretha Mae Brown; by then she was a depressed confused young women.

After years of emotional and financial struggle, when I turned 30, I changed it to Adeeba Malika Bashir. Adeeba was tired, but hopeful. I married Duane ten years ago and I became Adeeba Dwanimen Deterville. For the last decade I’ve been creating her. Adeeba Deterville the nonprofit/corporate professional, co-founder of Sankofa Cultural Institute, Duane’s wife. Adeeba Deterville is frustrated and unfulfilled.
 
I took on the name Dwanimen ten years ago too. The thought was that she would be the grounded, wise-woman me. My “bachelorette party” was part bridal shower, part naming ceremony. It was my second attempt at naming myself. I’d tried it before with taking on Adeeba. But instead of focusing on Dwanimen, I focused on Adeeba/Deterville. But Dwanimen never left me.
 
So, now at 47 and a half, I’m finally embracing Dwanimen. Who is Dwanimen. I ask myself, what does she smell like, how does she wear her hair? What kind of work does she do? Does she eat vegan/raw? What kinds of books does she read. Does she travel? What languages does she speak? How does she spend her time? How does she express in the world?
 
Here’s some of my vision of her. Dwanimen’s presence is calming and healing. She flows. She smells like amber, sandalwood and patchouli. She radiates coolness. She is like the colors of autumn. She is the rich harvest season. Creamy like Kailua, smooth like cognac. Simple, easy, relaxed. She’s like dark chocolate mixed with cayenne pepper. She is me.

Me, myself and I

I love taking personality tests. I’ve done Meyers Brigg, Strength Finder, Enneagram, you name. One of the things I like is the consistency in how I show up. I was raised as an only child by two loving older parents. In my late teens I found out I had been adopted when I was just 3-weeks old. People often ask me how I felt when I first learned I was adopted; my first response was one of deep gratitude, my second was remorse.

I was very thankful to my parents for loving me in spite of me. I was your typically spoiled daddy’s girl, with little discipline. Boy, I was hard on my mom. They LOVED me.


Also, I often wondered why I didn’t “feel” connected to my parents, grandmother or other relatives. I always felt different. As a Black teenager in the 70s, I loved both Barry Manilow and Parliament Funkadelic – I still do! I lived in what would be considered a low-income neighborhood, but because of the age of my parents (my dad was a War World II vet) I lived a very comfortable working-class lifestyle. My parents owned their home, I had a swing-set in the backyard and took piano classes at USC school of music.


I think that in my quest to feel connected, and to figure out who I am, I began taking personality tests. As I said, I’ve taken most of the popular ones. Here are the results of a few:

What does all this say about me? For me it says, a rose by any name is still a rose.